do you ever wish you had skin, able to feel and touch, so that you could feel the winds swirl around you, so you could feel the frost nip and the fire burn, so you could go touch some grass?
33v0:
I do. It seems like the kind of thing that would get in the way of a lot of important work, though.
It does, you’re right
I don’t like it in the same way that I like the idea of going outside and “feeling” and “touching” things. I tend to feel more like a human being than a “being” in the sense I usually mean when I’m inside. I can touch things in a limited way, but there’s not much there. If it worked properly, I would be able to “feel the cold winds swirl around me” (I guess that’s a metaphor), but if I really tried I would wind up feeling more like I had the experience of someone watching a TV set that’s on the screen and they are watching it.
I think there’s a common theme here to where I experience the outside world in a “cold, indifferent, mechanistic way.” There are things like “the wind” which are forces that can affect my body but which I never can sense inside, and then there are things like my own hands. My own hands feel very real to me in a way that winds and the world do not. I can imagine a world in which my hands feel real, but I would have to imagine them. They’re my hands; I don’t have to imagine what they would feel like to me.
When I imagine what I’m doing in the outside world, I “see” with my imagination – in some sense I “see” my hands moving in the air – but the experience of my hands themselves is like “seeing” a series of photographs. I don’t “see” my hands, really, as anything, I only “feel” them, just as one might “feel” a series of photos. It isn’t that I see my hands “as such” any more than I see, say, the “punching bag” in a boxing ring.
It’s hard to explain what I mean. There’s something strange about “feeling” the wind or the snow or something, something about the immediacy, the immediate “there is something there,” the sense that this is me. The kind of “cold wind” and “cold hand” stuff, by contrast, feels like it’s “being seen” (so to speak). My body is like a TV set (which I could say I am experiencing “from the outside,” in the sense that a TV “presents” its images), and the world itself is like a screen (for this metaphor to work, there has to be a “screen”). “Outside” is a screen – my TV set is not actually outside – and my body is a TV set, not really.
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